hearts in need make symphonies
I’m really tired.
402 is almost done. The project is basically complete. We made an operating system that is multithreaded and multiprocess-capable, supports server/client networking, with protected virtual memory and a software TLB. You can write arbitrary programs in C and compile them, and it will run them.
This is the first Saturday in a long time that I haven’t spent the whole day working on it. Usually we work the entire weekend, and every weekday after I get off work at IML. I come home to sleep.
I don’t know if you’ve ever had an experience like this—but it’s one of those things that you can’t really describe to other people. At the end you’ve accomplished something great, but it’s something that only you and your 402 buddies really understand. Nobody else can ever really comprehend the magnitude of what you’ve been through. I feel like an elitist writing that now, but it’s exactly what I was thinking when my partner and I were sitting on the floor of the fire exit corridor in the computer lab, working on laptops because the lab had closed for the night. We’d been working for about 36 hours straight at that point, only stopping for food.
I haven’t had any time to do KSCR stuff this summer. We were supposed to rebuild the whole facility. I’m supposed to produce the new website. I feel guilty for not getting anything done. That I can feel guilty for not working when all I’ve done this summer is work is indicative of my life. Never satisfied.
More than anything, I just want to get out of LA and forget about everything. Which is exactly what I’m going to do. #
