braindump
But wait, there’s more. I feel like writing tonight.
I have a neuroscience exam tomorrow, and a religion quiz, and a math quiz. Ugh. I’m not prepared for math, I never am. But I always get a 100 on the quiz. I feel bad, because it’s giving me a false sense of achievement and I’ll get owned on the final. I really hate classes. I love learning new things, and I love (most of) the content of the classes, but I hate all the administration and tests and notes and stuff. I hate the competitive atmosphere most of all… it’s hard to know it until you take a biology or compsci class. I wish we could just go learn and enjoy it. Every class should be an open colloquium.
My class schedule for next semester is a beautiful work of art. I only have about four hours of class a day, except for Thursdays, which are marathons. But it’s way better than this semester.
What’s a bunch of smart people, bound together by a self-reinforcing delusion of legitimacy and importance? KSCR. Just a thought.
Everytime I’m there, someone asks me to do something for them or help them out with something. Lately I’ve just started saying no, because I simply don’t have time for new projects. I’ve got things balanced pretty well now, don’t need to be screwing with that. So somebody tries to add a few kilos to my triple-beam life, and I tell them no, and they think I’m an asshole or that I’m playing favorites or something. I think that nobody understands the actual amount of hard work that goes into all the things I do at the station. I guess that’s a self-centered thing to say. Maybe I should interpret it as a compliment that I make the things I do look easy.
I’m not really sure why I still work at KSCR.
Well, I guess I know why, now that I think about it. Huh. #
October 30th, 2003 at 1:47 am
I hear that, bro. I have/had the same problems. We incorporate a whole bunch of extra work into our already hectic schedule, and at some point, you have to say enough’s enough.
Displeasing people is an unfortunate side effect, but you learn a new set of skills rather quickly. For example, you learn how to weed the important tasks (for benefit of the whole) from the tasks that other people are trying to unload on you just to make their lives easier (for benefit of one).
Knowledge… she is a bitch. When you know how to do many things, you often seem obligated to act on that knowledge and do things for other people because they ‘don’t know how to’. (If I ever have to clear another paper jam from the office computer, I’m going to go berzerk)
It must be fantastic living life without many skills. You could just plead ignorance and pawn your ideas, problems, and hard workload off on somebody who has the knowledge behind the task you want accomplished.
And that, my friend, is how you encounter people who seem to have nothing to do. The ones who always have free time are the ignorant. The ones who are always busy are the intelligent.
Tell me again how this is fair?
October 30th, 2003 at 2:10 am
Well, I don’t mind being busy, to a point. It’s fair, I signed up for it.
PC LOAD LETTER, baby.