Tried redesigning this site tonight. It turned out all black and gray, washed out, depressed.
I have a tendency to focus narrowly on one thing in my life. It’s good when I need to get work done, but it’s hard when it’s not something academic or predictable. One little thing goes wrong, and I get really depressed. I lose sight of everything else.
It’s not like I forget about the other things. I consider myself one of the more balanced people I know, as egocentric as that may be. I’m always thinking about the big picture. It’s just that the one thing seems so much more important than the other things… It seems that way even when I think it through and analyze it. Contradiction.
My life lately is an exercise in patience. Guess I’ll keep waiting.
There’s some more to say about school and stuff, maybe later I guess. Don’t care anymore. Wanna curl up and disappear for a few days. #
