Trying again.
Colleen and I have decided to stop talking and seeing each other for awhile. I feel manipulated by her every time we talk. She often acts like she’s in love with me, but then explains it away later. I can’t handle that anymore.
I miss my friends from USC. Casual communication, easy in person, breaks down over the summer. Since I spent most of high school with Colleen, I find that I don’t have too many friends to chill with here at home.
Last time I was writing here, I was going to tell you about how my job at Clear Channel doing web design starts today. This is no longer the case. Due to some confusion in the higher-ups concerning my pay, I can’t start for another three weeks. I love working at CC, but I’m not sure if I want to wait three weeks. I can apply to be a game tester for EA, which would probably be fun. That’s a full-time position, though. Hmm. Time to whip up a resume?
The design of this site is ready to change. I’m getting sick of it. After much consternation on the matter, I’ve decided that Moveable Type, a blog content management system, is for me. It’s great fun to do all this work myself, but it’s also a lot of work that other people have already done for me. There’s a lot of cool features in Moveable Type that would take me a long time to implement by hand — a comment system, email notification, post editing, etc. I could do all those things — it’s not beyond my skills — but I’d rather that it just work, and let somebody else do all the coding for me. Ultimately, I could do what my friends do and use some sort of blogger service (i.e. livejournal, diary-x), but I would lose the level of customization that I have here. It’s also nice to have web space and a domain to play around with.
I’ve been reading John Irving’s The Cider House Rules. It’s great. I loved Owen Meany, so this was a good choice. I think Irving is a excellent storyteller. It sure doesn’t seem like 600 pages. It’s a page-turner, and I still have a hundred to go. I can’t wait to see the movie, which is supposedly quite good.
Did I mention everything that was in my original post?
Oh - whole body massage. My new cell phone number, which has a central Florida area code, formerly belonged to some massage place. A seemingly shady massage place. I keep getting calls at 4am… lots of guys looking to make massage appointments. I tend not to answer that phone anymore unless I recognize the number.
I guess I’ve been feeling pretty depressed lately. It’s probably because I’m lonely. It might also be because I need something to do. I’ve been working out, that helps. My job situation is bad, because I was looking forward to getting up tomorrow (today) and having something productive to do. I have web design work to do on my own, but I can’t really start that until the rest of my computer gets here. It’s looking like Tuesday at this point. Who knows.
I’m tired (a rarity!) and I’m going to bed now. G’night. #