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Yes, I hardly write here anymore. I’ve suddenly lost interest. I guess most of the things that I want to write about are private and don’t belong on the Internet. Those things are the elements of the more depressing moments of my life, anyway, and they wouldn’t be very much fun to write about.

Suffice it to say:

Girls are responsible for most of the high points and low points in my life. Mostly low points, recently. I won’t get into detail. My happiness practically varies with the phases of the moon, corresponding only to the random whims of these strange, strange creatures.

My therapist is the man. I haven’t missed a single appointment since I started with him. I have more of the will to get up at 6:30a three times a week recently. Might have something to do with the lack of electric current awaiting me. We do hot, we do massage, we do ultrasound, we do cold. Today, we made the discovery that tendonitis isn’t my only problem. You see, there’s only one thing that travels all the way from the base of your skull to your fingertips, and that’s the ulnar nerve. I have some bad neck problems — the pain (which I’ve learned to ignore as a “normal level of pain” in my neck) radiates down my arm. Yay. That explains why I have general pain through my wrist, instead of the kind of pin-point pain commonly associated with tendonitis. Although I have that, too. Oy.

I love physics. It’s all I do anymore… not that it was my choice. But really, it’s good stuff. We just finished up special relativity, which is one of the first things Einstein came up with. It’s amazing. He pulled this stuff out of thin air — and it makes no sense — and it works experimentally. Wow. And he did it all in his head. No experiments. Crazy. While he was working a dumb job in a patent office. So, what happens if you get a flashlight moving at near the speed of light, and turn the light on in the direction of motion? Opposite the direction of motion? Not what you would expect, non-physicists in the audience. Black magic, that’s what happens.

We’re working on a quiz right now that’s all about the Fourier Transform. Anybody familiar with SETI@Home knows about FFT, the Fast Fourier Transform. Well, I’m busy deriving it. Hehe.

Music is great. I think I want to stick with the music minor… I just hope my arm heals. The therapist says that there’s hope. I hope he’s right. I want to be in the band again. I miss it. It’s a time commitment, so what. I’m sure there’s nothing quite like marching into the LA Coliseum, entertaining 100,000 people.

I have my highs and my lows. The lows are more pronounced. But, all the time, I think about how beautiful and amazing the world is. Life is good. I think. #