stupid drugs!
A Message to God. No offense, buddy. Really. But please hear me out when I ask: Jesus H. Fucking Christ!, what the hell did I ever do to you? This is true horror. In fact, I think this almost disproves your existence, because no conscious creator would ever cause anyone this much pain. Fuck.
Just one of a few entries I made whilst my guts were twisting in pain. I think, rather than retell the whole story, I’ll just post what I wrote to Joe over AIM to explain myself:
cgkampers: for my jaw, i’ve been taking this tylenol w/ codeine, which at first was working well but now is working not so well, about two weeks and a zillion doses later. anyway, apparently this stuff has a side-effect of completely stopping up any bodily function below your ribcage and above your knees while you’re taking it. yesterday was the first day that i didn’t take it (because i was starting to feel better) and then, all of a sudden…cgkampers: bam. the most intense abdominal pain i’ve ever had in my life, hell, the worst pain in my life. like no other, holy shit. hurt. i had baaaaad pain for about 4 hours yesterday, and just now for about 1.5 hours. yesterday, i was praying to anybody who would listen to make me pass out. (i didn’t mention, i have some weirdness in my stomach to begin with. i always get bad stomach aches, so this was just a compounding. i have drugs for this, but they didn’t help at all.)
cgkampers: in retrospect, i was apparently “dependent” on the codiene. i don’t think i’d qualify it as ‘addiction,’ because i didn’t “want” it or “need” it, but boy o boy did my body fuck up when i stopped taking it
cgkampers: i wish i had known this ahead of time, because i wouldn’t have downed so much of it
So yeah, you get the picture. #